Kim Hyun Joong, when I read about you dating a college student in Canada, I thought about in 2001, when I wanted to move to Canada. However, I haven’t ever been to Canada. I admit, other then the fact I was suppose to go to Korea when I was in the Army and I didn’t ever go. When I saw apart of myself in you and your creativity it made me want to go even more. I know I should have started learning korean back then, but I didn’t. As I said before, fate is funny, I’m so much older then you and you have no true Idea and purhaps could or don’t careless. But, if the day shall ever come that you do come to America again, I hope that I will be able to see you and not your look alike. I didn’t want to go to the store yesterday with fears that I would see a look alike of yours. I wish I was the right age for you and well ethnic back ground you desire in your true love that you will marry. I don’t know when I will truly start dating again, when I do you will still apart of my heart; I just wish I didn’t want you so much. I want my heart to want to be only a fan, nothing more, so it won’t hurt as much. Apart of me wishes I didn’t even know that you had ever existed the pain is so over whelming. Yet, I’m praying every day, to ask that wishing I had your heart and I was your wife would stop. Because I know you have so many fans that we all receive the same email mailing and blog info. Again, I’m still learning Korean no matter what and yes, little Chinese and Japanese. No, I didn’t attend the Japanese language school in Indianapolis, IN, I considered attending. NO one can take your place, no look alike no other man, but they can just be themselves. I wish I was the right type, race, and everything in a woman you wanted. FATE, I I must of done something truly wrong to love and want someone that is unreachable, unattainable, doesn’t truly know nor care that I exsit ; worst part I’m so much older than. I’m happy for you and the love that will be your wife. I don’t and won’t ever get married because I want to be your wife. Without being your wife, rather I date or not, I’m not willing to marry any other man for the rest of my life. I’m sleepy and upset with sadness for not being with you, so forgive me for all the typing errors. Yes, I dreamed about you last night, caught myself talking in my sleep. Funny thing is, I reside alone so there wasn’t anyone else here that I could have responded my conversation with you with. I haven’t decide if i want to start a business again, I may not ever again.I have decided yet. I’m not willing to contribute to any businesses, people,charities nor anyone that has stolen from me or violated me in any way. If they get any assistance from me it would be without my approval no matter what. It would be only forced or fraud because my answer is and would always be NO; That includes all and any Veteran Programs & Veteran organizations that also violated me in any way. NO forever, NO.
I’m Happy for your success, Loving you always & forever
your Djinn within your Djinn
Sherelle
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